Maybe the most ingenious invention at all time was the tire. Or if I may say, the circle. Why? It's the invention that represent our life. Cycle. Never flat.

Just like me. Life was never flat for me. Like now. When I'm still at high school, boys was never a problem for me. I never lose them, they who lose me. And now? Sounds very pitiful, but yea, I lost my last boyfriend to some bit*h outside, I can't get a hold of him.. Just to make it worse, I lost almost all of my friends too. Lol.

And now, I'm an (almost) adult who still kid at heart, I can't cope with my "old" age, and I feel so pitiful.. Pathetic, I know. But what can I do? I'm struggling now to get my friends back. and my trauma, my deepest fear, that is alone, is standing just behind me, ready to eat me when I'm unguarded.

Like my lil sister. She's not the prettiest, or the most popular girl when she's at high school. Send her to other country, and voila! She become so pretty and fashionable no wonder if she's popular, while I'm here, makes no difference from my high-school age, and rot like an old couch gag.
Seeing my lil sis and my best-boy-friend, getting nearer to IAR status while I'm here getting further, makes me feels jealous, but happy at the same time.. Will I ever find a guy who will never cheat on me? Will I found someone who will understand me?
I usually sees the glass is half-full.. But now, just now.. I feel my glass is half-empty..

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