Saturday, July 31, 2010Love..
It's a strong word..
You may like someone, but it doesn't mean you love him/her..
You may like, and be his gf/bf.. But still.. Do you really adore him/her?
Will you still love him/her no matter what?
I'm not.
I have my own way of thinking. People may not agree with me, that I know, and I truly understand. But for me, as a person who had taste the bitter taste of poverty, it was really a nightmare to lick it again. I don't want to ride a motorcycle for my whole life.. I can't use cheap soap or shampoo, either. And call me spoiled, but I can't stand the dizziness of using public transportation (in my place, public transportation are HORRIBLE), and I'm not too strong about heat either.
Long story short, I'm weak, especially to penniless condition.
That's why, I'm working really hard to try to find a better living (no, I'm not really WORKing, I'm just trying to say, I'm trying.), and also, I try my best to find some man who have the same point of view with me about this crucial matters.
That's why, I don't want to be with people who just knows how to play a game. I also want a person who I can really depend, or at least, won't depend on me. A mentally-grown up man, at least.
And then, the problem came..
I was.. Usually.. Liked the man first, and try to seduce them, then I got. Voila! That happens every time.
But this time.. I'm confused. Why?
There's this man. Or Boy? who loved me ever since I knew him. He still remembered, every seconds we were talk, every action he done to me, every reaction I give him, every moments we're together.. From the 5th or 6th grade of elementary school! =.= And to make it strange enough, every time he had already forget about me, he meet me in some unusual condition. I don't know what to react. All I know is this man(or boy?) loved me, and still loves me.
What makes me confused, is that he is still a boy. I think he's still not thinking about job, about how to get money, how to get a proper job, what to do, how about the future family, etc. etc. I'm not joking, I'm really are serious if it's about to commit a relationship. I don't want to playing with this kind of relationship, as I don't want to end as a single at 30.. But I'm also think about my future with him. He still have no clue, well he have, but it's not enough, and it seems that he still doesn't trying to get some wages. And.. Hard to say, mean as it seems, he's not from the rich family, which means he can't have a jump start, but a crawl start. Should I chose to love -- some futured guy, or should I be loved.. by some pauper with a chance to be a prince, but with a lot of chance of still be a pauper?
It's a strong word..
You may like someone, but it doesn't mean you love him/her..
You may like, and be his gf/bf.. But still.. Do you really adore him/her?
Will you still love him/her no matter what?
I'm not.
I have my own way of thinking. People may not agree with me, that I know, and I truly understand. But for me, as a person who had taste the bitter taste of poverty, it was really a nightmare to lick it again. I don't want to ride a motorcycle for my whole life.. I can't use cheap soap or shampoo, either. And call me spoiled, but I can't stand the dizziness of using public transportation (in my place, public transportation are HORRIBLE), and I'm not too strong about heat either.
Long story short, I'm weak, especially to penniless condition.
That's why, I'm working really hard to try to find a better living (no, I'm not really WORKing, I'm just trying to say, I'm trying.), and also, I try my best to find some man who have the same point of view with me about this crucial matters.
That's why, I don't want to be with people who just knows how to play a game. I also want a person who I can really depend, or at least, won't depend on me. A mentally-grown up man, at least.
And then, the problem came..
I was.. Usually.. Liked the man first, and try to seduce them, then I got. Voila! That happens every time.
But this time.. I'm confused. Why?
There's this man. Or Boy? who loved me ever since I knew him. He still remembered, every seconds we were talk, every action he done to me, every reaction I give him, every moments we're together.. From the 5th or 6th grade of elementary school! =.= And to make it strange enough, every time he had already forget about me, he meet me in some unusual condition. I don't know what to react. All I know is this man(or boy?) loved me, and still loves me.
What makes me confused, is that he is still a boy. I think he's still not thinking about job, about how to get money, how to get a proper job, what to do, how about the future family, etc. etc. I'm not joking, I'm really are serious if it's about to commit a relationship. I don't want to playing with this kind of relationship, as I don't want to end as a single at 30.. But I'm also think about my future with him. He still have no clue, well he have, but it's not enough, and it seems that he still doesn't trying to get some wages. And.. Hard to say, mean as it seems, he's not from the rich family, which means he can't have a jump start, but a crawl start. Should I chose to love -- some futured guy, or should I be loved.. by some pauper with a chance to be a prince, but with a lot of chance of still be a pauper?
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